Thank You For Your Thoughts!

I would like to thank each and every one of you for reading my thoughts. Your comments are appreciated.

I work long hours in a job that pays my bills. I raise my hormonal 12 year old son who doesn’t like school and amazingly never ever gets homework, I try to fin time after he sleeps to create my mosaic art and also write my thoughts mostly before bed.

Lately I’ve been playing with my thought process. I’ve been breaking my billions of thoughts each day down trying to make sense of what they are, or what they’re for. I’ve learnt that as a woman, I seem to have so many irrelevant thoughts, things come in to my head that really don’t matter, they’re certainly not important, life threatening, fascinating or clever, so why do I waste so much time thinking stupid things!? It has me baffled for now but I am controling them more and more by simply dismissing them and filling myself up with nothingness…it’s very liberating!

Each time I bust myself thinking something that’s wasting my brain power or precious moment, I pop it like a balloon and it disappears, (yes, it is that simple, we are all simple creatures, so what do you expect!) I decided that I would rather have clear, clean moments of just being, rather than moments where my brain won’t shut up, I think women might be naturally born slightly schizophrenic. Most of us let our thoughts control our lives, as in, our forever fearful, doubting or worrying thoughts. Let them all go, you truly don’t need them. Deal with what you have to deal with then dismiss it like a strict head mistress or head master of an elite private school for only the highly disciplined.

I have found that by not worrying, there is no energy feeding a so called problem, besides, in the long run, we see that things were never really a problem as they all eventually get worked out…there are only solutions, so learn to hush it, zip it, shut it and listen to the peace.

When I have a thought, I now either let it stay for a bit until I work out why it has popped into my head, or I simply and instantly (maybe arrogantly) throw it out. I am in charge of me…and my brain, so it’s my way, all the way.

I like writing how I speak, naturally and directly, that’s why I also enjoy reading the comments you post, you reply without thinking as you already know how my thoughts have made you feel, it is you writing your thoughts back to me, quick and easy.

Now, all I have to do is ask my darling dad how I reply to your comments…..don’t worry….I will find the time! Now, off with your head!