As humans why do we worry so much about nothing?….Or anything?……Or something?….I never quite understand how the mechanics of life work, so after thinking about it and realising at this exact moment that even my thoughts don't mean anything, I laughed!

Thoughts are like a wheel and just keep going around and around and around, jumbled thoughts, or too many thoughts are exhausting. So, I then just shut up. I force myself to STOP…I put on the brakes…. screeeeech.. and I sit in silence….ahhhh….the peace and relaxation that washes over me is incredible. I actually feel my body relax. I feel my shoulders go back down to their normal position. How long have I been walking around so tense for? Do I often get like this? Do I get like this when I simply think too much? Or when I'm tired? Is this feeling real?

We all get stressed, I know I get stressed when I get tired…or when I stupidly and courageously challenge myself, but I see life as a game, or a book…we each have our own life to live…to play, to act out, to direct, to remember. So if nothing is real, why do we stress? It's so silly, surely we can't all be that stupid!!? Oh wait, yes, yes we are, we are humans!

Sometimes I get headaches, I don't know why but they seem to only come on when I don't drink enough water or I stress.

Yes, I know I am human but I thought I was more powerful as infinite energy…or something like that…so then why am I so dumb? Ohhh, that's right, I am human, in a human body, with a human brain! And that brain can be such an annoying part of our story sometimes, it's like that really annoying person you know that never listens and only talks, it gives you a headache! 

But we still don't get it. We walk around not knowing what we are supposed to do.

We work in jobs we really don't enjoy.

We have unhappy relationships/marraiges/families and friends, sometimes we all just want to run away and hide, I know I do, so where is the peace?

On my lunch break today, I sat in my car doing nothing, for a whole hour, I thought I did nothing…but I actually found peace. I switched my thoughts of 'to do lists' off in my head and just quietly sat watching the breeze blowing the leaves.

I watched and listened to the birds singing and enjoying the swaying of the branches in this same breeze.

I watched people go about their personal business while this same breeze blew their hair around annoying them, (I found that amusing and smiled).

I watched a piece of paper flying and swirling gently through the air whipped up from somewhere from this same breeze.

My conclusion? Perhaps we are the breeze, always creating movement around us, swirling through life, traveling here and there, or stuck in a corner like a little whirlwind twisting around and around like that wheel of stress but never quite getting anywhere…each of us create our own wind speed and direction.

Nothing and everything is real, but it all means the same, we just live, accomplish something, then instantly move on to the next something, we don't stop enough to have a celebration, to bask in the beauty around us, the peace that is always around us, surrounding us, or within us…even a mini round of applause would be nice sometimes, but I still don't get why we even bother to stress? Nothing's real, so now relax, ahhhh…feel your shoulders and body go back down to their normal position and let your thoughtless energy swirl around, pick up speed and take you to places of where nothing means anything but something to you!

Remember, nothing is real….or is it?!